burnout

Published 2025-04-02

Self sabotage. That’s what burnout seems to feel like. A cycle of helplessness, shame, and grief. It feels like I am drowning. Every once in a while I manage to get my face above water to gasp some air. Barely enough to stay alive, but not enough to stop feelike I’m dying.

To-do lists. I make and abandom them all day. Maybe scratching an item off will give me the dompamine rush to cure this illness. Instead they become open graves of all the things I am unable to do. Eulogies of moments of hope, hope that is now long gone.

Written in my journal on 2025-03-28.